Something good is happening in my life these days... something so good that I had been waiting for it for a long long time and I had almost given up hope on it.
But finally it happened !! And I am excited, anxious, scared all at the same time.
Because whenever the good times are here, it always feels as if time should just freeze here.
But then, there is something else that is happening. All the wrong people are coming forward to take the credit for it, claiming they always wished the very best for me. But, in my heart know how those are the people who did everything they could to bring me down when I was in turmoil. They never bothered to lend me a hand to help or a shoulder to calm me when I was going through the worst phase.
Those were the people who were busy at that time making sure their selfish reasons and occasions were the only things taken care for.
Sorry, folks, not this time in my life. I just cannot do it. I have done it all my life, ignoring all the wrongs you did. But I am just done.
Just me and me only know who were my own, who helped me bring this day for myself. And they have been too modest to even mention it.
And I owe it to myself to let them know.
And for now, I just want to live these moments, because they are too precious for me to lose them.
I don't think anyone other than Gulzar could have put it more beautifully as these lyrics, what I am feeling:
Ae zindagi yeh lamha jee lene de
pehle se likha kuch bhi nahin Roz naya kuch likhti hai tu Jo bhi likha hai, dil se jiya hai Yeh lamha filhaal jee lene de
Maasoom si hasi, bevaja hi kabhi Honton pe khil jaati hai Anjaan si khushi baheti hui kabhi Saahil pe mil jaati hai Yeh anjaana sa darr ajnabi hai magar Khoobsurat hai jee lene de Yeh lamha filhaal jee lene de
Dil hi mein rehta hai, aankhon mein baheta hai Kaccha sa ek khwaab hai Lagta sawaal hai, shaayad jawaab hai Dil phir bhi betaab hai Yeh sukun hai to hai, yeh junoon hai to hai Khoobsurat hai jee lene de Yeh lamha filhaal jee lene de ... Oh, pehle se likha kuch bhi nahin Roz naya kuch, oh likhti hai tu Jo bhi likha hai, dil se jiya hai Yeh lamha filhaal jee lene de ...
And Listen to the beautiful song here: