You think it gets easier the second time
It doesn't...take my word for it
The pain, the tears, the anxiety still remains the same
You still have that heavy feeling, that lump in the throat, those tears in the eyes when you leave
No, I am talking about something else
Leaving your kid at the day care
those mornings are the hardest
saying bye to a 2 month old baby who doesn't even realize yet that mommy is just about to leave and she'll be with the strangers for the day
And you leave heavy hearted just hoping that she'll be fine
and she won't cry and they'd take good care of her
And then those mornings when your toddler cries and yells and tells you that he doesn't like to stay at the after school care; he misses his mom over there
He has all the time to play and watch TV over there but he still loves to come back home and lay down with mommy and sister, just like he used to do before mommy went back to work.
I have been through this so much and so many times that I am not sure I can do this any more
And that's why I am so glad December is already here
because the new year has to begin with some new decisions and new challenges and hopefully some new changes for me, my kids and my family.
Amen to that !!